-Child of GOD -18 Years Young -Imperfect -VCU’16 :) -Musician -Music Is My LifeTumblr (3.0; @ceejayaye)http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/<p>Tonight, I had to make one of the hardest decisions that I have made in a while. It involved be having to put my feelings aside and do what God told me to do. As much as I did not want to do it, I knew that deep down inside, it was what I had to do. Did it hurt? Heck yeah it hurt. I&#8217;m 100% sure that it hurt me more than it hurt him. Immediately when I did it, I bawled like a baby. I had not cried that hysterically in a longgggggg time. My heart is still extremely heavy and most likely will be for at least the next few days. The only thing that gives me hope is knowing that God would never put more on me than I can bear. With God and friends by my side, I can get through this. 💜</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/49571941497http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/49571941497Sat, 04 May 2013 01:22:10 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/f384779aa7b644a672092f63f0170b6b/tumblr_mgr06zWMFe1r1n47po1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179797215http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179797215Tue, 22 Jan 2013 01:34:00 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/1506b331cba29a670b927d8cdb160ca0/tumblr_mg0snsFovu1qdlh1io1_400.gif"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179518241http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179518241Tue, 22 Jan 2013 01:28:34 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/9b941ebe37e00b0965fc02d00e34ea45/tumblr_mgzxv38hTu1rqrnlao1_500.gif"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179385437http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41179385437Tue, 22 Jan 2013 01:26:00 -0500<p>So I&#8217;m up thinking about my life and I&#8217;ve gotten deeper into the thoughts of my past relationships. I ask myself questions and one of my main questions is simply, &#8220;Why can&#8217;t a guy put as much effort into a relationship as girls do?&#8221; I really cannot seem to find the answer to that one. Yes, women typically fall harder and quicker than guys do. That&#8217;s fact. It just amazes me how committed a guy can seem for the first few weeks or months and once they have the girl reeled all the way in, their commitment goes away. </p> <p>&amp; guys said that they don&#8217;t understand women. Psshh. Please.</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41083196124http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/41083196124Mon, 21 Jan 2013 00:51:26 -0500<p>I&#8217;m Just Disappointed Because I Thought More Of You.</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/40079540473http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/40079540473Wed, 09 Jan 2013 01:39:39 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lvgb2inbwd1qg2w78o1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p>My Feelings Exactly…</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/40079342194http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/40079342194Wed, 09 Jan 2013 01:35:28 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_med6jnVwrH1rnn6wqo1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://www.psychofactz.com/post/36990525140/more-facts-on-psychofacts">psychofactz</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><strong><a href="http://www.psychofactz.com/">More Facts on Psychofacts<strong> :)</strong></a></strong></p> </blockquote>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056871008http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056871008Sun, 02 Dec 2012 15:58:43 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me7tm18wpY1rli6ejo1_250.gif"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me7tm18wpY1rli6ejo2_250.gif"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me7tm18wpY1rli6ejo3_250.gif"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me7tm18wpY1rli6ejo4_r1_250.gif"/><br/> <br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056827656http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056827656Sun, 02 Dec 2012 15:58:10 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb8jetJbYz1r6umrko1_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb8jetJbYz1r6umrko2_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb8jetJbYz1r6umrko3_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://socially-awkward-platypus.tumblr.com/post/33197323019/flower-skirts">socially-awkward-platypus</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>The composition is so amazing, especially the faux skirt-twirling.</p> </blockquote>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056510011http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/37056510011Sun, 02 Dec 2012 15:54:14 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mba0knzIsp1qe7mxjo1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36881693170http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36881693170Fri, 30 Nov 2012 10:22:45 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m9httelLSE1rnu6pso1_500.png"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36881578643http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36881578643Fri, 30 Nov 2012 10:19:58 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbjv9znXeP1qhf8zao1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36824815608http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36824815608Thu, 29 Nov 2012 15:14:12 -0500http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791808274http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791808274Wed, 28 Nov 2012 23:52:10 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m4cckwelIv1qld7j9o1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791759686http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791759686Wed, 28 Nov 2012 23:51:18 -0500<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb73u5gWbV1qlccb8o1_r1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791696014http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36791696014Wed, 28 Nov 2012 23:50:10 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4dx3hwbh1qbjt25o1_500.png"/><br/><br/><p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://theblackmaamba.tumblr.com/post/36679499756">theblackmaamba</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>relevant.</p> </blockquote> <p>Story of my life…</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36679881520http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36679881520Tue, 27 Nov 2012 14:50:55 -0500<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_me4wcxBZ0a1qgrlieo1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>Yup, pretty much.</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36653053205http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36653053205Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:50:57 -0500<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://kandeelovesya.tumblr.com/post/36650828029/sometimes-i-think-that-ill-never-be-able-to-fully">kandeelovesya</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p>And at this point I honestly don’t know how I feel about that…</p> </blockquote>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36652643182http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36652643182Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:40:23 -0500<p>Why do I even try?<br/> Why am I always the problem?<br/> Why do I always get blamed for everything?<br/> Why can I never win?<br/> Why am I not good enough?<br/> Why does heartbreak hurt so badly?<br/> Why me?<br/> Just WHY?</p> <p>These are just some of the questions that I find difficult to answer.</p>http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36652545457http://ceejayaye.tumblr.com/post/36652545457Tue, 27 Nov 2012 01:37:55 -0500